The Lord knows what is going on

I wanted to stop my whole freedom of speech thing since my last entry and yesterday, but if you know how I'm feeling now, you wouldnt even care.

I dont want to read something that hurts me but not be able to do anything to it - That is what I have been doing. And I learnt to hold back my tears. I learnt to not cry.

But I am not saying I want to go out and do something, prove something either - I have nothing to.

I just want to be. Me.

I am indignant towards the many things that have happened. Am wondering whether he remembered how he strongly, realistically presented his case to me.
I have but nothing with my unprivileged position. So I am at where I am. I do what I am supposed to do.

But all I am doing now, is crying.

Friends, blame me for misrepresenting myself in this blog, for possibly causing more injury to myself - but for the first time in my life I learnt : I am the wasted time, actually worth recycling.

How defeating.

I'm sorry I sound all bark and no bite (the no bite came when I decided to post this. My actions didnt speak for me at all.)

But the Lord knows what is going on, and only He does.


I promise to not read anything ever again.