Sunday, August 31, 2008

Oh honey, if you only knew.

Finally, finally got round to buying my own slr - like being trapped in a happiness bubble.
It's sunday, and I'm still in that bubble. Everywhere I go, I bring with me MY FAVE TOOL.

Original agreement had been to start a photography expedition right away, but humble me realised I need to out figure more functions, do more rubbish snaps.. :))
My dreaded non-camera days are finally over. I might even bring my tripod to camp!
It's a heavy and crazywhacky idea.. but I like it more than I'm willing to admit.


















Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Best picture of what today was

despite the battered heart down poem,

my present from Daddy - I GOT THE JOB!! Thank You Jesus TKJ TKJ TKJ TKJ TKJ. You Love me YLM YLM YLM YLM YLM.
It was the most perfect of my interviews, like full blown beautiful, full blown Godly.
It's like fresh ink still drying, I'm so tempted to celebrate - actually I celebrated on Saturday with hotdogbun at Miramar Hotel's Ikoi Restaurant. SASHIMI! Slurps.
Everything happened so quickly - that leap of faith, into the beyond - interview, prayer and hope, got the job got the job got the job (ringing in my head).
That is why I bought myself a pink-red bathrobe.
(Side note: If you're lazy like me, wet hair and not willing to towel/ blow dry. Bathrobes work well with you)

Smile for a longer while today
Met Shxs for YU PIAN MEE FEN - Dig it totally dig it rocks my rox sox. I am still praying Shxs will accept me in the upcoming camp because she has visited HOW TO WAKE MEL UP (it is tough) and bad reviews by Pea that you cannot vomit in the same room I am sleeping in. Very sad friend I am; seals their sorry fate because I only have them. :P

Met E for TCC after shopping for bathrobe - I got into her way of regular work but she's still so cool about it. I had a good time, thanks and welcome for reading my 8 days Heehee

Had chicken rice with Mummy and Deedee at Cityhall - a secret streetshop I love.
We devised plans for the near future till after we get married (that is if I believe in marriage) and the sweet thoughts and houses and happilyeverafters. I love them. They watch me grow, in mental and heart, watch me fall and pick up, watch me gone and come back. They gave me love, grace, time, strength and support. This is sweet reality.

Contort, not
I came home, forgot I got the job and felt a little undigested again.
AGAIN!? Little fragile innocent heart.


Will you laugh at me ? Will you applaud when the comedy's over ?
When the credits roll, where will I go ? Will you still keep me in your hold ?

I dont know.

The fast ocean (small sea) coming between us, drowning out our love.

Perhaps jet setting might help?

Still feel like running away,
A jet set trip from the grey way
The hazy blur, the strange stain,
You take me away and away from pain
But breathe in all your lies,
Compromise, compromise
The pointless plots, the cries I find
in my eyes. Turn blind,
never thought I could be like this,
are you really like this?

Weekend "doctor" for nursing and divine attention

I keep smelling my new bathrobe

Wall of mayhem - In progress (see papa and me pic I love it)

DOMO PIRATE

Monday, August 25, 2008

MY SONG; VERY NOW - But I only hear I CANT BE THE ONLY ONE

04 Chris Brown - With You - Chris Brown

[Intro:]
I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight

[Verse 1:]
Hey lil mama
Oo u a stunna
Hot little figure
Yes you a winner
And I'm so glad to be yours
You're a class all your own
And oh little cutie
When you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that your mine
You are one of a kind

And you mean to me
What I mean to you
And together baby
There is nothin we won't do
Cuz if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my all

[Chorus:]
And oh
I'm into you
And girl no
One else would do
Cuz with every kiss
And every hug
You make me
Fall in love
And now I
Know I can't be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of they life
Who feel
What I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Girl
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you

[Verse 2:]
Ooh girl
I don't want nobody else
Without you theres no one left and
You're like Jordans on Saturday
I gotta have you and I can not wait now
Hey little shorty
Say you care for me
You know I care for you
You know that I'll be true
You know that I won't lie
You know that I will try
To be your everything

Cuz if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my all

[Chorus:]
Yeah, oh
I'm into you
And girl no
One else would do
Cuz with every kiss
And every hug
You make me
Fall in love
And now I
Know I can't be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of they life
Who feel
What I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Oh oh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Yeah

[Breakdown:]
And I
Will never try to deny
That your are my whole life
Cuz if you
Ever let me go
I would die
So I won't front
I don't need
Another woman
I just need
Your all or nothing
Cuz if I got that
Then I'll be straight
Baby you're the best part of my day

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
They need they boo
They gotta see they boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Hearts all over the world tonight

[Chorus:]
And oh
I'm into you girl
And girl no
One else would do
Cuz with every kiss
And every hug
You make me
Fall in love
And now I
Now I can't be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of they life
Who feel
What I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Girl
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Ooh ooh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
With you
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you

*************** ENTRY

I'm beginning to behave like a perfectionist - the best love, the best gifts..
I think I am a perfectionist. Or maybe OCP - Obsessive-Compulsive Personality.

And maybe, some people dont deserve my perfection HEEHEE

It was the most passionate, most fun, most weird night, yet I fear it's not remedy for me. It feels very right and very omg when I woke up this morning and omg at home and omg I hope this means I have moved on already. Like Super Fast. Let's hope it is. But it is also a feeling of scared. But then if I am scared and it all happens, I would know what is true.

I stay away; am mostly indoors at home. Dont need so many fake friends. Just a handful best friends to keep me in tact. So thankful I am if you dont ask me why am I at home. Because it is a luxury sometimes. If I dont go to church, pray for me. I am speaking to Daddy all the time but still pray that I will go to church. That it will excite me again. Oh great! Church camp coming YAY!


On another note, I will be having the second interview tomorrow at 12:30pm. It's 3:30am now, I'm not one bit tired. Thank you Jesus I will wake up at 10:00am to decide what to wear, You bless my interview and the things to sayyy, also minus eyebags and a cheek zit Amen.
Whoo hooo Daddy, give me the accomplishment!

Give me red red roses. I miss flowers! I miss cooking instant noodles with the egg without MSG, that I used to cook for everyone, until I stopped and ate outside.
That is where my money is spent now.
Sashimi sashimi sashimi.

Btw, the song I KISSED A GIRL by katy perry, is pretty hitting it up - Interesting in a I Like It kinda way. But you know, I think it's cute and sometimes I like to change my MSN nick for a day "I kissed a girl" or if I am crazy sad "I am crazy sad" but you get 11 people who ping you to ask if you're okay. And good grief Why cant I be upset? Why cant I want to kiss a girl sometimes, or write out a line of lyrics for pete's sake!!
I also try not to fall into the fear of being judged and asked. Church people sign in and I have to change my nick? NO WAY................. If I write Jesus I love You for them, then it is not for Jesus (and myself for that matter)SO.. to hell with pleasing humans..

I cant wait to start on film, and on the new dslr very soon.
Thankyou L, for your text msg - for being excited for me. I am too, very much! It seems like you have been sick for awhile. Rest rest ..

Oh, getting back to reality, I need to rest too. I am really tired now. I miss hugging. Maybe I need a hot WOMAN.





"I TYPE WHAT I LIKE"

X,
Mxx

Saturday, August 23, 2008

I kissed a girl. It felt so right

So perfect for a chillout.
My misadventure tonight. Let me go.


Isn't the concept of good news and Fridays perfect?

I scored a second round interview!
If you knew how I'd performed, if you only knew - Jesus made a way for me.

My perfection.

(Special mentions for their comfort and prayers: mommy, dee, shxs, pea, hotdogbun, f, lily, r)
Thanxxxx, mwah :X


E said she first thought of me when she saw this pic. This has been a trait (within me) for the past 2 weeks for every camera - a sign, every canon - a sign, anyone who insists it isnt a sign - a sign.

The cash in my bank is a ticking time bomb waiting to leave me. Comex, anyone??


Follow your heart. Where spontaneity meets an excuse to eat Mcdonalds.


Dreaming of a litter of Golden Retriever puppies,
Mxx

Thursday, August 21, 2008

A stayer; not a goer

As it is not possible to blog (back) my past days (I WAS LAZY)(!!), here are the pictures:


Tuesday 19th (OFF DAY) with Pea
Happy to see what we have opted for; scared at the same time. In retrospect tho, I bet we wouldnt have chose differently.
Our oddly positive off day.



Wednesday 20th
After-work day with F. A tale of old friends meeting up.
F came to pick me up at work, told me he had parked his car beside my office building.
"Red car", he said.
I thought he said "Red car plate." So I walked past a red car, and continued walking.
It was only after 2 honks and a head's turn that I realised. OH. It's A RED CAR. GEE.
In an infinite series of laughs, I had fun :D
Big Moonie


Mani, Pedi, Mani, Pedi. Many Many Mani Pedi


which is why even E is a sucker for the manicurist Christine after I bought her here for the first time. 5 stars. and 6 stars because she loves dogs :))


Bestest Kang Kong


I stayed far beyond when anyone else would have walked, and I even felt bad for going. And I guess, that is why I say I brought it upon myself. This is my Relationship Smoothie.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Episode, somewhat

Last night I received a pretty startling text.

I made no especial effort to sound polite when responding, and meant it when I thanked him for his honesty.

We are acquainted because of our friends. He became a friend.
And remain a friend he will.

Pity I just sent one. But that one did surprise me today.

Scored an interview with the company I applied for 2 weeks ago.
As I said to my colleague R, yesterday, "No open doors LEYY."

"Mel!! That's cos you never knock. You just stare, at the door!"

"Well. I did. I sent out one CV 2 weeks ago."

"ONE!! Good grief, no one sends just one CV!!!"

"Hehe, I know. I'm picky."

Sunday, August 17, 2008

With any move,

comes an aching pain.

- The definite drawback of winning the race (Bleah. I sound like schmuck! Hehe)


This new living pain and a fever catch saw me half-dazed and aimless.

I couldnt walk, but I wanted to go to the flea market.
Badly.

I dont always have the luxury of having a friend pick me up, pay my cab fare, shop with me for an hour, send me home and not accepting any cent of the fare.

But I did today.

And just so you know, my friend is female and she is straight :))

Every cloud has a silver lining

Satisfying tidbits - Happiness is relative

Midweek
A conversation along the lines of "what books are you reading" and Pea: "Mel, I'm halfway through your call girl book" bought me to BdJ's first book discovery I could borrow. The guy we've been trying to shake off every lunch hour has the book! The book I've ordered at Kino that I did not buy, that cannot be ordered anymore, that I am considering buying on Amazon.com, can now be mine until I finish it!!
T.K.A - Totally KickASS
And as if that was not enough to make me happy, he has the tv series I have trouble downloading online too!

It never occurred to me, that men would read such trashywomen stuff.
And more reading materials than me, to give me a real boot.


I can kill you with my metal deaths

Naked



Topping the league table of favourites - Time aloud with they




The undeserving birthday boy who cant have me fooled.
Be gone, all your feign righteousness. This is rubbish and far too meta for my taste.
It is also worth pointing out that you have 1 friend less now, from the 0 friends you already have. That is, for you, now negative 1.
There are other better things to do than msn tennis me. Because I dont like you. Count yourself lucky if you are not blocked and deleted. This is your birthday present. This is Mel, what do you think? You expected maybe, a grind at the club?

Saturday 16-Aug-08

Maintaining the dimensions of our bottom - Exercising Aka The Amazing Race

All that pent-up energy from bringing Hansel along, drove both Pea and me to an overpowering enthusiasm. Add that we were excited and believing to win the race!

Not much an athlete I am, I know. Outside of work I am not interested in jogging. A night walk down the park is also out of the question unless I am troubled and need a breather. Already you know I prefer sleeping. (roll eyes)

But I have Christ and Christ-results are very beautiful.
We emerged Champions. To God be the glory!

We were running, searching, screaming, yelling. The competitive rush had every reason for us to. We stepped panic into overdrive by hitching a ride, only to find the driver a friend we knew - in particular a church friend, who drove us to our destination. All glee.
We took a cab, yelled at the poor cabbie uncle, (still)stayed to take the $1.20 change -- only to realise thereafter that, we had hit the wrong stop. Stupid clue.

Unforgettable moment definitely being bury self in sand. Extremely, disgustingly gross and lack of a better word, dirtysand. Vaguely toyed with the notion of never going through this task but everyone else was already sand-fed.
Eep.
As Alick puts it, "It's like digging your own grave."

Hahahahahahha.

But Saturday still really turned me on.

Apart from the competence of finishing the race first, I believe Hansel's presence gave me alot to smile at. He was barking at every volleyball, frisbee player; desperately wanting a piece of the action. He loves balls and chasing after one. If you ask me, he's a little human boy trapped in a puppy.

And that, amuses me to no end. Endears me beyond no end.
The love for Hansel stretches indefinitely into forever.

I've never felt so blissful in weeks.
No wonder they say A dog is a man's best friend.



Hansel Babyyy









Meet Hansel and his true blue sister, Snowy

Hansel's love for her - Predator and Prey













p/s - Yes I realise in my previous entry I was forgiving towards the birthday boy and clearly now, not.
I apologise. To myself.
Because I am a friend. Not a flipping trained seal. And most definitely not, a trained dog.
Also, dogs dont club.

p/p/s - Yes I am having PMS.