His love for me is out of this world

I have been meaning to write about Sunday.

But then there is this distraction every once a while - succumbing to the likes of my favourite friends of the super quick photo uploads (Facebook!) because frankly, Mel is just too lazy for their pain in the wait.

So I made a quick stab at being photoloading punctual : )) *Beam*
Success!

Laziness is not from God! Begone in Jesus name. It shall have no part in me.

With a Sunday service like this (12July), one must allow tears to stream down face and give in to the embrace of God. Woah. My heartstrings were not just tugged at; my whole heart was moved. This cannot be best summarised by anything, nor bought at any price for what has been bought and overpaid by His Son, Jesus : )

God's design for life and to whom He loves, is too wonderful and beautiful for my mere words.

But my mere writing (typing) I shall still do because I never want to forget this.

Pastor Mark shared about the Father's love - making the case of a father to a child, him mostly - to his daughter - the involvement of him in her life not just physically but emotionally; not just a speech of love but an action of one; not just a shout of praise, a pat on the shoulder on good result days but encouragement and support on her very odd days.

It is not like he or she (son or daughter) planned to come to this world a failure / drug addict / murderer. As if they need you to remind them to feel guilty. As if guilt needs reminder. As if we are not already naturally guilt-ridden. As if we don't need Jesus?(!)

I actually love such audacity. To me, such audacity speaks of God's arrogance and fight to love me. He guards and loves me fiercely. That who so tries to rob me (of my joy, my possessions, my heart; who hurts me) shall have no power over me.
Because His love is irrational. It is unreasonable. It is unthinkable.
It is OUT OF THIS WORLD. He will love you in spite of you (don't we many times dislike ourselves?). He will love you in spite of anyone, anything, anyhow. He will love you like NO MAN WILL. Because you were created for Him to love. You are the object of His love. You are the recipient of His pouring love. His expression of love is for You. You are THIS loved.

It stirred me up. I just kept tearing. I think I literally felt my heart melt. It went into a winter wonderland of slush.

God is too unreasonable! He loves me too much.
And because of this, I shall be unreasonable as well. I will take it all.
Not so much a rudeness as an excuse to be loved and romanced by Jesus once again. Time out of mind. Time is out of my mind. My future will never be marred by time. Indeed.
He who holds time, holds me higher than time. My future is secured (fruitful) because of Him. Jesus.

Sunday also held a special meaning to me.
12 July. My dad's birthday.
My dad really loved me. He still does (in Heaven). Something I always knew - he was like Pastor Mark, loving his child despite her performance anywhere. It brought me to tears again, when I remembered how my dad gave me a tight hug when I was 16 in school, receiving my report card. I did badly for my prelims (for 'O' levels), the inability to justify my exam results produced only a response of a terrible cry.
My dad pulled me to him. He hugged me. He told me "It is okay."
(Is it any surprise TOUCH is both my sister and my love language? I am not surprised.)

I will never forget him. I will never stop loving him.

To date, I can never watch a dad-child show without crying. It has become existent in my life. I miss him. And here I am crying again as the missing deeply dives into the heart.

But you know what? It feels good. It really does.

Pea told me, "I know and remember your dad as how Pastor Mark described a loving father."

I am blessed with such an earthly father. He has loved me well. He is an integral part to who Mel is today. I do not have him with me here, in the natural sense. But he is in my loving memory forever. No other earthly dad shall ever replace him.

I may not have a dad physically here with me but remember God is a Father to the fatherless. Therefore I conclude I will be fathered MORE than anyone else. I can expect MORE fatherly love than anyone else because The KING is my Father. A Father who loves me exceedingly, abundantly, above and beyond all that I can ask, think or imagine.

Because He only gives me the best.
I love you Daddy GOD.