"Last of the romantics I am", I say.

Strange how it took me so long (a month?) to finally visit the drs today. The lump beside my ear although not painful, has gotten me to respond and find out what it exactly is!?

True in the field God has paid the price of death for me that I may have life, not death and albeit I would rather be the least worrisome person, the lump still once every while reminded me of the lump I had right before the shingles happened and God forbid(!) I do not want to start exploring thoughts of how irksome it had been.
It shall never come back to me. Praise God.

Visiting the drs confirmed there is nothing wrong : )
Only a joint problem I have been experiencing for awhile but even that shall have no hold over my body. The unlocked jaws shall lock themselves back to whole because I have a living healthy sound body - a body Jesus died to pay for. An overpayment of a perfect body.

"How am I lately?"
Wow, I like this question. I get this question a lot.
But seemingly also, do not have the capacity of answering it to my fullest capability and have allowed the represented change in moods to catch on.

I look forward to the move. A new beginning.
Although letting go of things means fettering myself to a new set of ideas of what to do with my lifestyle again and reactions again and comfort zones again but it's worthwhile : ))

I know these are changes that have been a long time coming and I should be really grateful they are finally under way.
Just strange again how long it took me to see to put this back on track because sometimes when you're on the planet of hurt, you feel long-suffering (That's why it's called patience right?)
You do the things you need to but it's tough but you know it's love. You know it's God.
Until God told me yesterday, "Mel, you're just tired my love. Please go to bed."

Yeap, I really was dogged tired.

Came down with a fever today (not swine flu HeeHee) but am so glad it was the slight low immunity and fatigue that had constituted to my emotional rounds.

On the topic of extremes, I figured post-mel May 2009 although alot less emotional, belongs to the when-happy-very-happy-when-sad-very-sad extreme. If there ever was an example, I think I would be rolling on an expressway after an arguement. Haha.
But thank God for the abundance of grace and the gift of righteousness which has caused me to be alot braver and courageous, stronger and bold to do what I need to, to shoot arrows and trust in His business that will prosper my business - because my business is His business: )




Uncertainty has always been the catalyst for this.
Therefore I do not want. This shall be the certainty.

Till romance happens again, ciao ; )