Like a sponge,

I soaked up the crazy love God had for me yesterday.
Romanced by my Father who brings love to me.

Notice not I to Him? Because no matter how much I love Him, I know He loves me even more.
I will never be able to understand the fullness and depth of His love for me - His love will always be higher and greater than my love. And that is what blows me away.
I will never keep up. I will never love Him more than He loves me. I will never even love myself more than He loves me.
This is His crazy love.

Which is why I feel that Jesus loves me is a statement, completely UNDERSTATED. Yeap, how do you even start measuring?
You dont, you just receive : ))))

I am blessed by Pastor Judah Smith's msg last night, a dvd from Hillsong Conference my cg and I caught.

I must must blog it down because I dont ever want to forget this. Ever.

Pastor Judah Smith spoke about hugs, about how his love language belongs to touch and words - Wow, you know I thought I was the only person (at least from what I knew) who loves to be loved this way. Yippie! Because I have the same love language as a pastor! Till I get the book of love language to double confirm and double wow.

He mentioned about hugs. How an old man once tried to get away from a hug, mumbling , "Uhmm, mmm ya ya, mm".
There was awkwardness for this man. He was uncomfortable with the hug. A little disturbed perhaps.

And hugs are like grace.

Grace comes to you. You don't go to grace.
Grace wants to embrace you, love you.
Grace does not come under logic, cause or effect, reasoning or science.
Grace comes right to you, whether you like it or not.
Grace is a person. Not teaching, not doctrine, not values.
And
Where Jesus is, Grace is.

Pastor Judah Smith also shared about the story we know very well. Luke 15, the parable of the lost son.
Oh yea, we know - been there, done that, read that, right?

But Jesus surprises me : ) yet again. Nothing new actually. Jesus, King of Romance, Enchantment and Surprises. How do you ever grow sick of this? You never. You just fall deeper in love.

Luke 15:17 when the son came to himself, and said he will arise and go to his father and will say to him, "Father, I have sinned against Heaven and before you, and I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants." And he arose and came to his father.
But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him. And the son said to him, "Father I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son."

Notice the son had "planned" to tell his father of his unworthiness? He came to himself and felt that even the servants at his father's house were better off than him. And so he mentioned what he would tell to his father - His unworthiness.

But guess what? His great planning, his remorseful speech, his "plot" to impress his father that he felt unworthy, all to get back into the good grace of his own father IS STILL FAR OFF.

Because when was he ever worthy?
Never.

Simply put, HE WAS NEVER A SON BY WORTH.

HE WAS A SON BY BIRTH.

Praise God.

I am who I am by the grace of God. I am son by birth.
I have no right to apologise for who I am because I did not earn to be who I am today because of me.
I am who He made me to be.

I am righteous because He says I am.
I am blessed because He says I am.
I am worthy because He says I am.
I am who I am because He says "Mel, this is who you are, I made you this way. Enjoy and I LOVE YOU FOREVER."

This is who I am. Who my King says I am.

I AM A PRINCESS : ) True royal blood.